How Grief made me Fat- and how I shredded it!

This is a very personal story but I think it is important to share…

In 2016 my world came crashing down.

January- I had just received the news that I got a new job with excellent pay, and even fully paid accommodation. Life was feeling great. I was really excited for the new beginning and moving into a really nice new home as part of the package. I was due to start and move houses 10th February.

I called my dad (who I was extremely close with) to tell him the good news and he was just as excited for me. The next day I was with my dad, and during this time he was really struggling to breathe. Now you should know this about my dad- always been a STRONG guy, an Aussie battler who never retired, always worked, and never went to the doctor. He was kind of downplaying how bad he felt because men like that are tough! They don’t complain! By the afternoon we went together to my sisters place, and the whole family went to dinner. After dinner dad knew he needed to get to the hospital..

As soon as he got into that hospital bed, he couldn’t walk anymore, and his health just started declining rapidly. We all were basically living at the hospital 24/7 with him for almost a week before we got any results of what was happening. His body was full of cancer- through his bones, lungs- everywhere. He had no idea that he was even sick prior to this. Exactly 2 weeks of dad going into hospital, we lost him. And my heart was completely broken beyond explanation ( I am crying while writing these memories).

I had less than a week to now go through burying my dad, grief, moving houses, and starting a new job- looking back I don’t even know how I could have done it.

So the entire year was an absolute struggle for me, and the last thing on my mind was to take care of my health and well being. I literally just needed to make it through each day. I was not conscious of what I was eating, or the amount of food. I would live on junk food as it was a comfort. I  certainly was in no frame of mind to even think about exercise.

Before I knew it, it’s now 2018 and I am  almost 15kg heavier. This might not be much for some people, but at 163cm, these extra kgs make a massive difference  to my smaller frame (excuse the pun). Always being rather in shape most of my life, this was the first time weight was an issue for me. The funny thing is, I would notice my expanding body when looking in the mirror, but didn’t want to see it. Only one night when I randomly checked my BMI on an online calculator was when my numbers equated to “very overweight” heading towards obese. This was like a slap across my face.

When you are overweight, you feel sluggish, depressed, tired, grumpy,defeated just to name a few. Not to even mention the physical toll it takes on your body- aching bones & muscles, heaviness, shortness of breathe, I could go on. I felt awful. I didn’t feel like I was living. I was just surviving.

That was it. It had been over 2 years since I lost dad, and now was the time to not allow this grief to shorten my time on this planet. I really believe that because I was so unhealthy, this was actually delaying me in moving forward with my happiness and well being. I don’t think you ever overcome grief, but I do believe that you can find some happiness in your life again.

It was time to make changes. I knew that I am allergic to the word “diet”, as anytime I feel deprived of something, is when I get into the binge mentality. I had to come up with another idea that would work for me.

I made a few of the obvious changes- healthier meals, less bad snacking, more exercise, but still I could not see that much change. I felt defeated.  I did more research, and unless you are a dietitian, it can be really hard to figure out how to get the exact amount of nutrients every day. So I started to add healthy products to my diet such as protein shakes, vitamins, healthy snacks and whole food smoothies. This was the turning point. Together with healthy meals, my weight shredded in less than 12 weeks- and has stayed off.

It was a lot of trial and error to find the right products to compliment my lifestyle, as so many on the market are full of extra sugars, additives, and other nasties. After shredding this weight, my moods are so much better, I have endless energy, and I FEEL GOOD! I can think clearly and make decisions easily. I am a better person, and a better person to be around!

This is also how Shred Squad was born. I want you to also have the access to the best of the best products to compliment your lifestyle. When I was searching for the right products, there was no where to really get any advice on particular products. It is almost like a wild goose chase. That is why Shred Squad is so much more than just an online store. Shred Squad is a community where you can come for advice, share your stories and get inspired. I want you to know that there is light at the end of the tunnel. Life will always throw us curve balls. I want you to know you can get out of that black hole. I want you to feel better. I want you to know that grief is normal, and there is no right or wrong way to grieve. I also want you to take care of yourself- especially during tough times. You are not alone, and you don’t need to do this alone.

Dad, I love you always xoxo

I never though I would post Before and Current photos, in public but here you go!

Not only did I Shred over 10kg of fat, but I increased my muscle mass and built strength.

One thing I should add, Health is a Journey- not a Destination. Even if you hit your ideal number on the scales, you still want to maintain that  peak health and wellness. You want to feel good for life! Thats why the second pic is not an “After’ photo- it’s a “Current” photo!

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